Pictures can be hurtful

I renewed my wedding vows with my husband and looked at the pictures today! My boobs are saggy and my butt is huge! This whole PCOS thing is just really starting to irritate me all over again. It was a great reminder of why I need to take care of my symptoms....they are making me unhealthy.

I had a very long talk with my husband last night. He has always been so supportive of me, no matter where I was at in this struggle. I need to be a round for the next ten years too...and obviously more.

So what is next? I don't know. I have to do something. I need to get my crap together and just do it!!
I am ready...but how ready?

I need to start exercising again. I feel so much better when I do! I don't know why I procrastinate. I get into the "ahh tomorrow I will do it syndrome" Really? Tomorrow never comes. I never comes!

On a lighter but not too bright note...I did fit into my wedding dress...it was a little snug in the upper abdomen.  But it fit. I would have been uncomfortable if I had to wear it yesterday...but it zipped without a problem. Yay!! 

I need to remember that it just isn't about weight...it is about everything else. The weight is just a small part of the crap that goes with it.

Pray for me...I need the strength!!

I haven't been doing so well!

So I could give a million excuses...but there is nothing...I have not been managing my symptoms! And that is not good! I am hoping that I can convince myself to do it with in the next week and a half, before I start my new job! I need to do what I set out to do! And that is to manage my symptoms!
I am not gonna give the excuse of "oh the Holidays" Pft! Whatever!!  I have no excuse! I really don't!

I also want to give myself a pat on the back...I QUIT SMOKING!!! Yes I did! And it has been 3 months...and I will give all the credit to Prayer and Chantix!! I started this blog to be held accountable to...whoever reads it and myself. And then I went away. Sigh!

I am all over it! I have no excuse! I love my daughter and my husband and they deserve to have a happy and healthy mom and wife. For my family!